I believe there is a term chemo brain. I have it and if the is no such term than I have just created it! It is not comfortable in that brain and there are many distiburbances between the brain and these fingers batting away. Painful and stiff! Horribly Frustrating! Everything moves in slow motion and absolutely positivley must involve tears. I cry when my boys fight, when my sisters flight was delayed, when I felt I was going to throw up, when I pee into the little hats that they are collecting ALL my of bodily excrerement! YES ALL OF IT!! i CRY AND CRY YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I cannot stop and have given up trying which is quite a relief....
I also a considering becoming a pharmacyst because I now know various forms of anti-nauseous medications and actually have gone through oxy-codone withdrawl myself since checking in! Enough for now. I can barely keep my eyes open
I love you
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Jen,
ReplyDeleteI wish I could be there with you!!! Don't worry about crying, your dad is there now. You can cry to him anytime you want...he is used to it! I will try to get a phone # from him so I can call you tomorrow. I really do miss you and hope to be able to see you soon. I am praying harder than I have ever prayed in my life!!! I love you! Jane
I wish I could have been a fly(of course with face mask)on the wall when you and Megan saw each other, I am sure there were no tears there.....NOT. Hey Jen the fact that you can even take the energy to write on here is a true testiment to your energy and spirit, with all that is going on you still manage to keep us all informed. You are truly in the best place you could ever be with Megan there. I know that this will change your whole attitude and everyones outlook knowing that you have her to lean on. Please remeber how much we love you and are thinking and praying for you everyday....
ReplyDeleteJem,
ReplyDeleteI think about you and your family everyday!!! Thanks for the updates...I'm sure it is a struggle. You are an incredible person!!! Focus your energy to the positive....it really will help!!!
I miss you "Jem"
Love,
"Maugie"
Jen,
ReplyDeleteNow that you've given up trying to stop crying you probably will stop. It's good to cry and express yourself rather than hold it in. Thanks for writing and keeping us updated so we can take this journey with you, from a distance. Isn't it amazing how much you are learning. You will probably be qualified to be a doctor too. Keep up the good work, stay positive - one more day down. We are all praying for you. All of us.
xo Wendy and Tom
Jen,
ReplyDeleteI think you are an angel. The cross you are carrying right now is so heavy but I know you will handle this!! Hang tight Walker Mom.
I love you.
We're thinking of you, Jen, and praying for tears of joy when this is complete. We love you, El and Ron
ReplyDeletehey you..I been cryin for the past 2 years..I'm thinkin it may be Hormonal..as My Sky would say, "Go Cry Your Tears Out"...God forbid if this is what Menopause is like..
ReplyDeleteYou are a Brave Soul...Hang in there..I know its easier said than done...You are doing a great job..
I am guessing you have tried the drug, Reglan. its for nausua. It did wonders for My Sister years ago..
Joey has been working Mark out..Trying to make a Wrestler out of him...don't think its working..lol..we shall see...
As long as We get to sit at their games together..like old times..Can't Waitttt!!!
Lotsaaa Hugggs & Kisses,(of course with masks on)
Angela
Jen,
ReplyDeletePlease know that we are all praying for you. You are stronger than you think (or feel right now)! Nicholas has been asking for David - please let him know. He really misses his friend.
Love,
Theresa, Harry and kids
Jen,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the updates. Tracey and I are thinking about you and praying for you and your family every day. It was great seeing you here in Atlanta in May. We look forward to seeing you again soon.
Love,
Brian and Tracey
Jen,
ReplyDeleteTears are a form of human emotion and that means there are tears of fear, joy, sadness, hope and cure. Keep those tears coming as they are there to show your emotions through the ordeal you are currently going through. They say the eyes are the window to the soul. The tears are the emotion. You are in a safe place with very competant people caring deeply about you and your health and most importantly your future. We are all pulling for you and that is a great emotion to have in your corner. Stay strong, keep the finish line in sharp focus as you will win this race. Many friends are pulling for you and the tears of joy will be there waiting for you when you beat this challenge. Group hug to you and your family.
Jed